jealousy, thoughts, feelings, queries, etc.
twice in a week i did the almost similar thing. i almost cried. my bottom jaw was shaking when i tried hard not to let the tears out and he somehow saw it.
i did it again this morning in a message. he called me and said,
"dah tu, jangan nak fikir lagi. kalau ayang fikir lagi, nanti b buatouch! that hurts even more. that's my challenge. i've got to tell my brains to stop. i really need a break from all these things before i go crazy.
need to read more agama stuff. need to taubat. nak tebus dosa.
and it has to really start soon or maybe even now.